It's how the cookie crumbles....

I'm not a fan of raisin.. it's kinda killing my snack... granola and yogurt. Tomorrow is Tuesday.. groceries shopping day... we're all out of the plain stuff so I will have to pick some up. If I don't forget that is...

This evening was kinda odd... and it threw me for a loop. Although prepared for it, still not... Break ups. Their never easy. And although this isn't your typical "break up" scenario the similarities are bewildering... The awkwardness of not being sure how to behave around each other... the selective memory loss... forgetting what caused the break up to begin with, only remembering the good times. Maybe if we got back together it wouldn't be all that bad. Uhhh.....

I think about school... or the absence of it... every day. I don't know that I would have been able to pull it of so I'm not regretting my decision... And having a year off is a good idea.... To be uncommitted enough to be able to pick up a book to read or to go out for coffee with a friend without having to book two, three months in advance. It's nice. Never less...

You know with the amount of exercise I got today I should NOT be experiencing all this funny stuff.... What's up man? Let's stick to the plan! Listening to Jem as usual. The song "Save me" should be the theme song to my life.

Save me save me save me wooh

I've gotta stop my mind
Working overtime
It's driving me insane
It will not let me live
Always so negative
It's become my enemy

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh

Why would I think such things
Crazy thoughts have quick wings
Gaining momentum fast
One minute I am fine
The next I've lost my mind
To a fake fantasy

And none of these
thoughts are real
So why is it that I feel
So cut up and so bad
I need to take control
Coz my mind is on a roll
And it isn't listening to me

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]

Mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the dumbest of them all
Insecurities keep growing
Wasted energies are flowing
Anger, pain and sadness beckon
Panic sets in in a second
Be aware it's just your mind
And you can stop it anytime

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]

Ok so here we go
If it works I'll let you know
One two three I say stop


Picasa is not working with me today otherwise I'd be posting more pics.

It's 10:25pm and there is still a few items on my to-to list that could handle being taken care of. I hate waking up knowing that even though I have yet to set my feet out of my bed I am already behind the schedule. I'm off...