Nothing to report of. Staying away from the scale till things settle down here.

Back to 145.6 and was totally expecting it. I was kinda off track today too, but I went for a midnight stroll with my Hun and H to try and rectify it. No injuries this time around thank God. Watched Hitch today with the fam and even though we had all seen it before we laughed our pants off. Good times. Good times. While watching the movie, because a Mom never does just one thing at a time, I baked Rhubarb Muffins. We went out of town yesterday, returning home with a bountiful of goods from the garden one of which was Rhubarb. Tomorrow I shall make jam! If I have time that is....

Tomorrow is an exciting and scary day all at once. We finally meet with the Doc in regards to C. I'm not sure if I'll be able to sleep tonight. I am also faced with the task of packing for my little two night getaway with the girls, not my girls that is, just some random girls from church. Well mostly random but not. But really, what's there to pack? Even if I go with no more then the very clothes on my back I will still feel like I over packed.

144.6 and that's even after a sushi snack the night before! But I potentially ruined it already with a breakfast at The Pancake house and a few bites of chips n' salsa this evening. But I ain't too worried about it.

Thursday, August 6th, 145.8

I cannot help but wonder, is there such a thing as too much dreaming? A cap of some sort? Maybe like a salary cap or something like when your at the airport and your limited to two carry on luggage per person. Or that red line on the coffee maker indicating the maximum amount.

Maybe per person, but not per life time, or so I think anyway. See I find, interestingly enough that once you fulfill a dream, it makes room for another. It's kind of like a production line of sort. One comes off, another one comes on. Always moving, always cycling through.

Or maybe it's just me and my unquenchable thirst for more. Is that a bad thing? I suppose it could be but mostly I think not. I think it's human nature. Just how we're made. Always looking past the horizon, always on a quest for more. The trick is remaining grateful for what you do have. To not be consumed. To not allow our wants to morph and disguise themselves as needs. To not loose sight of the true necessities in life.

I've been so blessed with this new job. To have the opportunity to do what I truly love and get paid for it! Wow, it's been amazing ever step of the way! And so I was completely taken a back when a new... no, not a new but an old dream, a very old dream actually... a dream yet to have been fulfilled, crept back into my mind and heart.

Wednesday, August 5th. 145.6

After all that popcorn and pop I was kinda expecting that. It so wasn't worth it! Felt ill afterwords! But on the other hand had a GREAT time with H. We found a stunning white dress for her for our family pictures.

Tuesday, August 4th,144.8
Target weight: 130
14.8 more pounds to go.
Spending some time with H, going to the movies, have to take the popcorn into account. Cannot say no to crazy butter popcorn.

Monday, August 3rd. Was sick this morning. Weighed in at 145.2.